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Monday, February 03, 2014

Two birthday revelations

This past Friday, Alex threw me a 35th birthday party. He invited friends over for wine and Prosecco, and we ate our weight in Trader Joe's appetizers. It was so much fun! And I also had two big revelations...
1. Do you have a scary age? I don't usually get nervous about birthdays, but turning 35 was throwing me for a loop. It just felt so adult, so official. Although I'm still figuring things out—work/life balance, how to stop worrying so much, how to layer eyeshadow—35 felt like an age where I should have it firmly together.

But then I got a birthday card in the mail from my mother-in-law, Joyce, who is turning 80 this summer. It was one of those lovely Hallmark cards with flowers on the front and a scripted poem inside. And on the bottom, she had written, "Happy Birthday, Joanna. 35. What a wonderful age."

And suddenly I felt really lucky and excited to be 35. Through Joyce's eyes, 35 seemed so young and full of adventure. It completely changed the way I had been thinking about the age—I realized that we're actually living "the good old days" and I should stop worrying and enjoy them. :)

What about you? How old are you? What's your scary age, if you have one?

2. Alex's other brilliant idea: The evening of the party, our kiddos spent the night with their beloved babysitter! We loaded them up with travel cribs and backpacks, and they were SO excited. The next morning, Anton got to chew on his very first bagel, while Toby and his sitter did yoga to soothing music...
Go, Tobes!

Meanwhile, Alex and I got to sleep WAY in and just hang out quietly that morning. It was surprisingly romantic and wonderful to have our apartment to ourselves—like it was before we had kids! It felt like a mini vacation for all of us. Thank you so much to Alex (and our sitter)!!!

Have you ever farmed your kids out to their babysitter's house for the night? :) Or a relative? Did they enjoy it? Thank you also for your sweet birthday notes!

P.S. Gold candles, and birthday cheese.

(Thanks to Jason for the photos)

172 comments:

Emily Hackethorn said...

Sounds like a lovely birthday, and a lovely age! Love the yoga pics of Toby!

Cindy said...

I used to think that the twenty-somethings seemed so mature when I was younger. Now that I am almost 24, how wrong I was! I think we will always feel young at heart no matter what age we are :)

RoisinElizabeth said...

I don't have kids, but I remember when myself and my sister were young, we used to go and have sleepovers with my grandparents and various aunts and uncles all the time. It was always such an adventure and we'd always have the best time. It was such a treat!

Melissa Blake said...

Glad you had a wonderful birthday!! Here's to a great year!! :)

Chloe Jacqueline said...

Happy birthday! This year is my scary year, at least for now! in a week and a half I will be 25 and I feel like I should be much more established than I am, but just as you did I keep hearing from loved ones that 25 is a wonderful age! I guess it is time I embrace it! I am glad that you were able to celebrate with loved ones and have a fabulous time! Happy birthday once more!

Sarah Jensen said...

I'm 29 and a half and terrified of 30, but even more scared of 35! Thanks for the revelation. I would love to see a post about how different people cope with these scary milestones, or how different women chose to celebrate their 30th.

thereluctantlongislander.com said...

I'm so happy you had a lovely birthday! My husband turned 34 recently (I'm a spry 31) and he said it was unsettling because now he is in his mid thirties and no longer in that late twenties to early thirties group.

We have a nearly three year old and he sleeps out ALL THE TIME! We're very lucky that our parents live short drives away, and we are so grateful for that alone time in our own house. We started when Nolan was very little even though it was a huge pain with all that baby gear, and pumped milk, and a million diapers, but it has been so worth it. Sleepovers at Grandma and Grandpa's are something he looks forward to so much (though probably not quite as much as my husband I do!).

Jenny Post said...

Blargh that was weird, I didn't realize if I put my blog then my name wouldn't show up. It's Jenny :)

myheartscontentblog.com said...

Happy Birthday, Joanna. I'm 39 on Thursday and kind of freaked out about it because that's nearly 40. My best friend was 40 in January and said on FB that she can no longer refer to herself as a 'girl'. That's quite terrifying. But I bought some new, grown up clothes this weekend and am ready to face my final year of girlhood with shiny black heels and a new dress.

Cassie said...

I'm currently 36 and 35 was my scary age, and it's especially more nerve racking since I'm pregnant and keep getting reminded I'm of advanced maternal age (though just barely).

But really, it's no big deal.


Erin said...

I'm such a stalker - but is that Deb from SK at your party?!

Kelley Anne said...

I know exactly what you're talking about. I'm turning 35 this year, I have a child and I feel like I should be more grown up. But I also remember feeling the same way when I turned 25 and had no husband or child:) Ha! I had a similar experience with a woman who was in her 80's about eight years ago who said how wonderful it would be to be 30 again, so young! Happy birthday!

Wildes Waldwesen said...

I bet it sounds ridiculous, but my scary age is 26.. when 30 is finally nearer than 20. I feel like my youth will be over by then and I'll have to be an adult all of a sudden. Jesus!
Honestly, I don't wanna know what I'll feel like when I'll actually turn 30, haha.

morestomach.com said...

i turned 36 in dec. honestly. i'm fine with it. but confession: your brother in law's article about his diagnoses with lung cancer did scare me, he & i are almost the same age. drs don't say to me: "you're young, you're fine" when i tell them about an ailment, they actually take me serious!
i also slightly encouraged my husband, who will be 40 in march, to schedule a dr's appt. we're young yes, and we're fine yes but an annual checkup is a must.

anyway, this comment is turning into a bummer, i'm sorry. happy birthday to you, it sounds like a wonderful time was had by all!

Karin said...

Oh just you wait until 40.
ITS AWESOME!!
Happy belated. The next few years are really great. Enjoy them!

hoopty doopty said...

Happy belated Birthday! Must admit I'm giggling here a bit. 35 is so young, to me. It is true that you are as young as you feel, and or believe. I'm 46 and I feel great and beautiful and I don't feel old nor do I think I'm old. It is weird if I over think it too much and realise, wow I'm going to be 50 in 4 years but I say bring it on! It's all part of our journey and I think there are so many unique and different stages to this life here on earth that bring beautiful and wonderful growth. I don't have a scary age number to hit. You are gorgeous and a write a beautiful blog. All the best this year and to many more ahead. XO

Journeyin' Lady... said...

Oh dear...reading your blog and the comments: you are all SO young! And I love following you young ones! The zero birthdays have never bothered me but for some reason the "1's" kind of bring me up short 'cause it means that I was OVER 30, 40, 50...
Happy Birthday --- your sweet husband made it very special for you!

Scout and Rice said...

My scary age was 30, which I turned last year (and was not scary in the slightest!). I don't think I have any more scary ages. I am so excited for all the big milestones, because now they involve other people and not just myself - turning 50 will see our little girl in her 20's, my husband and I married for over 20 years. I can't wait to see what life looks like then. :)

Sexy Lexi said...

I'm so glad I'm not the only one! I'm turning 35 in a month and this one is totally throwing me for a loop, so much more scary than 30! But that sweet sentiment, that 35 really is such a golden time in our lives (I have a 3 y/o and a baby on the way), is just what I needed to hear to readjust my perspective... Thank you for sharing and Happy birthday, Jo!

Jesse said...

what an ingenius idea! so much better than waking up on five hours of sleep to "mama mama mama milk!"

http://semiweeklyeats.blogspot.com/2014/02/superbowl-salad.html

Kelly Rae said...

sounds like a lovely Birthday! I will be 31 this year. I'm pretty excited about my 30s but other friend's seem to be freaked out by it.

collette said...

My scary year is 51, where I'll officially be older than when my mom died, and, in good health, my 80s if my thinking is not sharp and/or my husband has passed on. Thinking of having my in laws watch the kids for 3 days during spring break. Congrats - this would never occur to my husband in a million years!

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marlene said...

My twenties were such a ridiculous decade of ups and downs. Now that I'm in my 30s, I feel so much happier and centered. I'm 34 (35 is in Sept for me) and I still feel like I haven't figured things out -- but I'm more happy about where I am than ever! For some reason society has us women thinking that aging means waning, but somehow I think it can be the opposite if you have the right attitude. You definitely do. Hope you had a wonderful one!

Carrie said...

I'm 26 (which seems like a scary age now). If you asked me how old I am I still feel like the answer is 21. That would be my automatic number if I didn't know better.

That said I try not to be too afraid of age. I feel like there are a lot of fabulous famous ladies (you included) who make getting older seem cool.

M.M. said...

I just turned 29, and the first thought that popped into my head on my bday morning was all "EEk! Next year is 30!" And then as I laid there, looking back at my 20s, I realized, there was nothing I longed for in them. I am ready to be done with them and move on to the next stage. Woo hoo, bring it on 30s!

mamamgeni.com said...

I remember once up on a time thinking that 27 was the perfect age. Old enough to be taken seriously at work (or so I thought), and still young enough to feel truly youthful. Now that I'm 37, I realize that my thirties have brought me SO much that I couldn't achieve or enjoy in my twenties... A loving marriage, a stable life, beautiful children, and more adventure than I EVER found in my 20s. (I live in Kenya now, and I lived in Virginia then - can't really compare!) Here's to our thirties!

Carrie Le said...

Happy belated birthday, Joanna.

Elizabeth said...

Looks like you had a great time! I'm turning 30 in November and I'm indifferent about it. Even though I'm a mom I don't really feel like an adult and I think I'm okay with that.
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asiajane said...

My scary age was 20!!! I was bemoaning the fact that "in 10 years I'll be THIRTY!" until my friend said, "Well, 10 years ago you were ten." As in... 10 years is a long time! I will turn 38 this year, and my husband will turn 40. Quite honestly I'm enjoying my 30s, wouldn't trade it for my 20s again for anything, and I'm looking forward to my 40s. Happy birthday!!

Joanna Goddard said...

these comments are great!

when i turned 30, i thought, "oh turning 30 is kind of hilarious, can't believe i'm 30!" but now with 35, i'm like "this is really happening...." :)

Jessica said...

I sort of had a breakdown at 25 and called my mom sobbing that I was too old to have kids! Can you say hormones? ;)

I'm 33 now, and turning 33 was scary for me. I felt like 32 was a great age...old enough that people take you seriously, but young enough that my teenage students don't see me as "old." Of course, now that I'm 33, it's not bad, so it's all just a figment of the imagination, anyway, and useless worry that we just create for ourselves for no reason! :)

Betsy said...

What a lovely thing to put in a birthday card.

I turned 24 in December. Remember being a kid, thinking people in their 20s are SO COOL AND MATURE? Wow. No. But I hope I give off the same impression to the 7-year-olds I work with, that I have it all figured out. I wish!

Maywyn Studio said...

Happy Birthday!
Heart warming reading about the party, sitter and your MIL.
Scary age is when my kids turned 30 years, and every year since. I'm sick thinking they will be old when I won't be around to help take care of them.
Most disappointing birthday was 40, when for years I expected to have some kind of grown up feeling like a miraculous boost of wisdom. Didn't happen. lol

MelanieKPrice said...

Looks like it was a beautiful evening. Happy Birthday to you!

My scary age was 33. Weird, I know. But for some reason that age hit close to home. Like I needed to have 'conquered' so much more. I am now moving closer to my 36th birthday this year and Wow! My thirties is going by so fast!!

We leave Dorian at my in-laws for overnighters now and then. Yes, those mellow, quiet mornings together are romantic. And peaceful.

Have a beautiful day.

Trish E. said...

I'm 42 now, but my scary age was 38. I was convinced that particular age meant that I was officially old. I had a revelation finally as to why: my whole life, my mother apologized to me for being "an old mother. " She never seemed old to me, but she had me at 38, and in 1971, that was older than most moms. Thus, I had it embedded deep in my brain that 38 meant you were old! I wasn't aware of this belief until I faced that birthday and had no children (I still don't have kids). Now any number in the 30s seems lovely to me!!

Amber said...

I just turned 30 at the end of December. I wasn't too worked up about it until I took a few clothing items to a consignment store a few weeks before my birthday, and the 16-year-old girl working turned down one of the items because it "was a little too mature."

A said...

I know this will sound ridiculous, but my scary age totally was six. I cried the whole night before my birthday because I thought I suddenly would not be allowed to go to kindergarden anymore, but turn a schoolkid overnight. So, turning 33 a few days ago was easy compared to that ;-)

Amber Bouchat said...

Lovely sentiment- I turn 30 this year and I don't know if I'm scared of it but I definitely am thinking about it a ton even though it's 10 months away!

dreamday said...

Thirties are fun but forties are even better so keep smiling! Happy Birthday to you! Toby practicing yoga cracks me up! You have such fun kids:) keep on capturing the moments. xo

~*~~*~MaryK. said...

Congrats on your Birthday,
I'm 44, and I still think I'm not a grown up. I have three kids and when I was their ages, I was thinking that my mom was very old at that age. But now that I'm there I feel very stupid about that.
Mary

Allison Menozzi said...

Thank you for this post! I don't have a "scary age," but I do feel like I should have my life more "together" by now (I'm 28). After reading the comments, it struck me that we, as women, are too hard on ourselves. I'd love to see a post - or series of posts - on how women cope with the feeling of not having it all together. Really, who's to tell us when we need to meet certain life milestones anyway? Where do we get these ideas?

Lauren Knight said...

I'm 34... today is my birthday!

And I LOVE being in my mid-thirties. I feel more confident and less self-conscious about my body than I ever have. One other thing... I have finally found my voice and have the best friends I've ever had. 34 is a great age. :)

Sugar said...

Sounds like perfection. I too turn 35 this year. Both amazing and scary. My facebook looks so grown up these days. And I am finding myself actively channeling my Mom and her organization/grownup/Mom skills!!

Erica said...

Happy birthday!!! What great perspective from your MIL, and what a wonderful little yogi you have!

Katerina said...

I'll be 35 in November! I think 35 is big for many women. Pregnant women 35 and over get to check off the "Advanced Maternal Age" box.
40 is going to be scary. How lucky we are though, that we get to be this age. I kept reminding myself this year of all the people I knew who didn't get to reach 34.

Sandra Barradas said...

42...sometimes I don't believe I already 42. I never been so happy in my life with my 3 years old girl and my lovely husband.

Unknown said...

Looks like it was a lovely party!

I turned 40 in December, which seemed impossible to me until the actual day arrived. And I discovered it's great! I realized I learned so much about myself in my 30s that now I can't wait to see what my 40s will bring.

I remember 26 being a scary age - somehow it really felt like crossing a threshold.

Beautifulosophy said...

Con grats! You're great and still not even 40! Enjoy your big 35! I still, at 42 soon, can't identify at all with my age. Suddenly 35 feel more apropriate:) Caroline

Anna said...

24 was my scary age. It meant I could no longer claim to be a recent college grad. Now I am 38 going on 39, and I can't even remember what I was going on about back then. And my 30s have been the best years yet.

Also, when I turned 30, I lamented my aging to two coworkers, who happened to be over 60. They laughed and one said, I don't even remember turning 30. The other laughed and said, I don't remember turning 60. Puts everything into perspective.

Beth Vogel Fitzgerald said...

My parents used to leave my brother and I with my grandparents (who lived down the street from us) when they would see plays and movies. If we were lucky, our aunt and uncle would have a date night at the same time, which meant our cousins would join us at Grandma's!

Sabrina said...

30 was a really hard year for me. I just assumed I would be more established, married, and getting close to having children. Now that I'm 37 and married with 2 kids and one on the way. 30 and single seems so fun and easy! 40 is looking kind of scary too, but by then my kids will be 3,4 & 5... and that seems crazy and FUN! I'm excited. Happy Birthday!

Lil T said...

do not regret growing older. it is a privilege denied to many. Celebrate your age, whatever the #. Happy Birthday!

Cristina said...

I'll be 28 in a few days and right now my scary age is 30. And I know that it's still so young, but it overwhelms me to think about all of the things I haven't done yet and want to do by the time I'm 30. Two years isn't a long time! Blast.

The Rambling Fangirl

Jessica said...

At 27, I catch myself thinking that I still feel 21 or 22 - until I speak with a 22 year old and then my immediate thought is "nope! not 22 anymore!" :)

J.Elizabeth said...

I turned 26 on this past new years eve. i can't help but feel the constant struggle to be an adult (i.e. make more money) and the pleasures of being a kid (not a care in the world.) I found the best balance between the two is to eat a fudgesicle for breakfast. Why? Because dessert before dinner makes any kid delirious with glee. And because I made the conscience decision to eat dessert for breakfast, which, as an adult, is my god given right now. :)

Brittany Bailey Liu said...

We just farmed out our daughter (age 2) and the dog to Grandma and Grandpa this past weekend. So amazing to be in your own home, but I'll admit, it was too quiet! We saw a movie, went to dinner, slept in, walked for coffee and even ready the newspaper! I'm a big believer in farming out - it's good for the relatives too!

Ashley said...

HAPPY HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY! xoxo

domonique matthews said...

35 was awesome. 41 not so much.

häjni said...

Haha I love how you put your hand on your chest when you get the cupcakes (: I always do the same when I get my birthday cake... "oh, is that really for me? it is so nice of you!" :)

Happy belated birthday!

Cosmic said...

Toby's just the cutest practicing yoga:-D

As for a scary age being a short**** 5' 2' I still feel like a kiddo despite being on earth for a few decades!

You are as young as you feel, Joanna, so enjoy!

Happy Birthday spring chicken!

X

donzwebb said...

Sooo happy you had a wonderful birthday, Joanna.:) I must say since I've had cancer, I no longer dread birthdays... I'm just so, so, so thankful for the gift of another year of life! I'm turning 34 in March and honestly, I don't look or feel a day over 24.:) You're as old as you feel! P.S. the yoga pics of Toby are sooooo adorable!

xoxo,

Donna

Save the Date-October 11,2009 said...

Hi Joanna,

Happy belated birthday. You look amazing post-baby! May the years continue to highlight even more of your beauty.

I don't have a scary age. My girlfriends and I all turn 30 this year and most of them are freaking out. I can honestly say after losing my father when he was just 45 and watching my mother battle a terminal illness for the last few years I'm truly grateful for every year I'm able to live.

I've learned that most of the things we worry about don't matter in the grand schemes of things. This is not to say they aren't legitimate concerns and important affairs but if we had a bird's eye perspective (you know the one God has) on our lives, perhaps we would invest more energy in the things that matter the most at any age.

Xo,
SH.

Caroline Shields said...

Happy Birthday!

I am 33, and feel like I'm at that weird stage, where I forget my age. I guess the number seems so insignificant these days. We will see how I feel when I get to the next big one!

We ALWAYS have the kids do sleepovers for our holiday party or a big night out. We are lucky to have grandparents close. It is always a fun night, but the extra shut-eye the next day is even better!

A Peculiar Shade said...

Hi Joanna,
I turned 35 today! It is scare, but I just had a baby 9 months ago and my husband and are launching our business! So it's an exciting time! And I'm looking forward to it! Glad you had a wonderful birthday and honoured to share the same weekend with you!

Renae said...

Looks like a fun party! When I was 15 I was in a very serious car accident with my mom (we rolled end over end twice - and were completely not injured). Having had so many people tell me that I should not have survived that, in addition to having friends in their 20's and 30's battle really tough diseases, I have always celebrated my birthdays as it means I made it another year!

Renae said...

Love the yoga photos - may I ask where you got Toby's tractor jammies?

Our Neck of the Woods said...

Happy birthday! I am turning 30 next week and have learned to embrace it. I was dreading it until I reflected back on my twenties and am ready to enter my thirties! I grew so much in the past decade so I can't wait to see what the next one holds. Hopefully kids :)

Joanna Goddard said...

A, that is so cute :)

Joanna Goddard said...

erin, yes actually! :) good eye!

Angela said...

I turned 35 last month and it seems strange to think we are the same age. You definitely seem to have it more together than me whether you realise it or not. Happy birthday girl x

Angela said...

I turned 35 last month and it seems strange to think we are the same age. You definitely seem to have it more together than me whether you realise it or not. Happy birthday girl x

The Reeds said...

Thank you for the fresh perspective! I turned 35 last week also and met up with childhood friends for a baby shower.. The topic came up that we would have our 20 year high school reunion in... gulp... THREE years.

Three...

Twentieth reunion.. as in two decades...

I feel sick to my stomach.

So, your perspective was lovely and refreshing all at once! Thanks!

bisbee said...

I guess I win...my scary age was 60. I survived that...I'll be 63 in May. The older I get, the older my scary age gets...which is true for everyone, I'm sure. The thing that is the most scary is remembering my parents at my age - they were OLD! In my head, I'm still young - and my kids are almost 39 and 36!

Age is relative...and totally dependent on your attitude!

Kate from Clear the Way said...

Happy Birthday! <3

Kate Uhry said...

It's funny, I don't much recall turning 35. The funny thing is, it seems young to me too (I am 47)! I think 45 & 47 so far have been my scary numbers, and I will look forward to 48 & I think fifty sounds like amazing smart together women, who have just figured out life (I hope). Also I remember driving in the car with my beautiful 80 year old grandmother and I was in my twenties and she said" I always feel in my twenties till I look in the mirror". I liked that. HAPPY 35th!

Amanda McCracken said...

I could never understand why people got so freaked out about birthdays and getting older until I was a few months away from turning 25. All of a sudden, I looked around and realized that time was passing and, if I wanted my life to be the way I always felt it should, I needed to start making some changes -- goodbye long-time boyfriend, boss that took advantage of me and city I had outgrown. In the middle of all the big changes, I celebrated my birthday. Sitting on the grass in a park with my dear friends, drinking lots of wine and listening to jazz music, I remember feel anxious and excited about everything that was happening and wondering how it would all fall together. Then, seemingly out of nowhere, this older woman sitting close to us, turned to me and exclaimed, "25! That is the year that everything comes together! You are going to have so much fun!" At the time, it felt like such a good omen at the time and put me at such ease with my decisions. 4 years later I would agree that, for me, 25 really was the year that everything came together. Also, I'm happy to report that I've returned to being unfazed by birthdays.

tinker6711 said...

I turned 35 last month, and, I think I'm actually okay with it. I have a two and a half year old son and I'm glad I became a mum in my thirties. I wobble now and again when I realise there's still so much to figure out, but I'm enjoying my thirties much more than my twenties!

sumslay said...

I feel like 29 was WAY harder than 30. 32 is coming up, and it feels a little weird, like I'm officially an adult. 40 has always been my number though. It's when you either decide to age gracefully or turn into a "mom". Eeek!

Grisgawa said...

I'm 42 now, and I remember when the age of 40 seemed SO old to me-- I thought turning 40 was going to be really tough, but it really wasn't. In fact, I think 39 was almost harder because there was such an anticipation/nervousness about turning the big 4-0, and everyone kept reminding me, "it'll be your last year in the 30's...enjoy it while it lasts!" It's all about perspective, isn't it?!

My former nanny took our kids for a sleepover a couple of times, and it was so great to have the next morning to ourselves (and the kiddos loved having a different kind of breakfast served to them, etc). The last time she took our 3 kids, it was for my 40th, and my husband set it up so that she took them to stay in a nearby inexpensive hotel that had an indoor pool-- it was a huge hit!

Happy belated b'day to you and your sister!

Elise Dujardin said...

Sounds like you had a lovely birthday! Those pictures of Toby doing yoga are the cutest!

Louise said...

I've got 3 years on you Ms Jo, and I still feel weird being this age. I thought I'd 'have it all together' etc, but what on earth does that mean anyway? I just try my best I guess and keeping a balance and keeping creative. The only thing I might regret is not having children, but we'll see... My grandmother was always saying (at the age of 95) that when she looked in the mirror she got a fright, as this old lady would be looking back at her, and she felt the same as she did when she was in her 20s. :) Happy Birthday! :) x

Anna Belle said...

Glad your birthday was lovely!

I think 35 has been big for me too because it's sort of the cut-off for making babies (although that's not even true). But the closer I get, the less i care!

Alexa said...

this post could not be more timely for me—i turn 26 on wednesday and i have been feeling pretty antsy over it. i love birthdays and always welcome them, but this one feels big, like i should i have more figured out than i do. it's wonderful to hear you say you love your 30s most—it reminds me of how much i have to look forward to AS i figure things out!

p.s. toby's yoga!! the cutest!

Linh Vo said...

So cute! Happy bday again! Tobes is your mini me!!!
Linh
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Gabriella said...

I had a similar revelation recently when I was listening to my parents discuss age and aging, from the vantage point of their sixties/seventies. According to them, the thirties were the greatest! As a 28-year-old, I always hear my friends moaning and groaning about turning 30. But, as you say, it's all perspective--perhaps we'll look back on these years and think "oh, what a wonderful age that was."

Bertie said...

Happy birthday!! What a lovely thing to write in a card!

Don't have a scary age, but I'm turning 30 on Wednesday and I've enjoyed each birthday as I've gotten older and each year keeps getting better, however l do feel as if I am dorky 15 year old pretending to be a nearly 30 year old.

I'm a lot more decisive than I was in my early 20s and am learning to cut out things that are unproductive or negative influences in my life. I'm figuring it all out slowly :)

dizzy_izzy said...

I'm turning 30 this year, and I am both excited and scared. I wish I had done more in my 20s, right now I feel as if I am at an impasse. I hate the feeling and want to get out before I truly feel like I am drowning.

shawn said...

Happy belated birthday! Something my fiance and I were just discussing the other night is that while you're busy worrying about how messy you feel your life is, there are others in your life (friends, family, colleagues) who a) have it worse b) look at you and are in awe. Don't beat yourself up!

Thanks for posting about the age scariness. My guy and a bunch of friends are turning 30 this year and some are straight up angry about it. I work for a national nonprofit organization and see death/illness on a daily basis. I am going to shout from the rooftops when I turn 30-- because I'll be lucky to make it another year. We are all lucky to reach another birthday.

kaitlyn said...

What a lovely birthday! I can't wait for my 30s. My 20s have been pretty rough and I feel like as I enter my late 20s I am barely beginning to discover who I am. I think the scary age for me might be 50, but I really think you are only as old as you feel.

Katie Johnson said...

Happy Birthday! How cute is Tobes doing yoga, adorable!

My scary age is 40, which I turned this summer. WHile it's not bad I do have to remind myself that is my age. I still have plenty of growing up to do:-)

Michelle Panting said...

That nice sleep in and alone time for the two of you sounds SO luxurious. What a great idea!

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Casey McCormick said...

I'll be 20 in August. Not trying to humble brag, but I am the more mature/responsible one of my friends. But there's just something about truly not being a kid/teenager any more that is making me a little anxious.

Lendy Salazar said...

Wow Lots of young readers! I'm turning 35 this year as well and still very much in mommy mode (1 yr old) and like you still trying to figure out what I truly want for myself. Lately I've been trying to also see things through a different light and realize that right now what I am is a stay at home mom and my past career and current and most important role as a mom are not what define me. I think we will always be "figuring it out" so might as well just enjoy the present!

nycsunflower said...

I just turned 40 a couple weeks ago and for the past few months I've had a hard time with it. So much so that I told my husband and best friend that I wasn't in the mood to really celebrate it. I guess it was the idea that now I was actually middle aged, no matter how you looked at it.

But then my birthday came and I felt fine about it. And I have been actually using it as a motivator to be better. I've been healthier and I've caught up on doctor's appointments and the dentist. I ended up deciding that now was the time to be my best self for me and my family.

goodnightstars said...

My scary age is usually just the next birthday, which is 26 (2 weeks!) Ever since I was in kindergarten, I never wanted to get any older. Every year was "the best age." Ha!

Lana said...

Oh, I GET it. 35 is my scary age, too. And in some weird reasoning with myself, I even think 36 seems less daunting. I have until March, though, so keep us posted on how things shape up. :)

Lana said...

Side Note: Sometimes I feel like I'm in The Twilight Zone at cocktail parties. I mean, all of my friends are GROWN UPS. We drink whiskey sours and have REAL jobs. When did this happen? :)

Jenna Griffin said...

I'm turning 26 this year, and I'm so happy! I hate the odd number ages. For some reason, 31 sounds particularly scary and dull. Someone tell me I'm wrong!

Jodie De Zuba said...

Turning 45 this year and loving my forties so far, turning 40 was hard but now I feel really good, had my last child at 43 and loving it!

I remember the first time our three kids went on a sleepover, the next morning was so quiet and my husband and I had the time to actually have full conversations with each other, it was great!

Hannah Tucker said...

Hey, it's Deb! (THAT IS SO COOL. I'm DYING to know what she brought.)

You look beautiful. I hope you have a great year.

Ingrid said...

I'm 66 (eek ) but I still feel young on the inside! I struggled with 35, because I had been trying to have a second baby for several years, and thought at 35 it would never happen. Then I miscarried, and was really depressed. But at 38 and then 42(!) I had healthy daughters! So don't give up! Keep good friends and keep learning, and you'll always be young! Wait until Toby turns 40! That will really freak you out, because you won't feel 40 yet!

Ingrid said...

I'm 66 (eek ) but I still feel young on the inside! I struggled with 35, because I had been trying to have a second baby for several years, and thought at 35 it would never happen. Then I miscarried, and was really depressed. But at 38 and then 42(!) I had healthy daughters! So don't give up! Keep good friends and keep learning, and you'll always be young! Wait until Toby turns 40! That will really freak you out, because you won't feel 40 yet!

genell said...

My Scary Age? 18. I was so afraid that once I hit 18, everything would speed up and the years would just fly by too fast with college, marriage, kids, etc... Now I'm 29 and I think my prediction was right, the years feel like they pass like minutes but, I'm so excited for 30. Everyone raves about how their 30's are better than their 20's. I'm ready to enjoy the other side of trials and errors that I stumbled through the last 10 years.

Rebeka said...

I think 30 is scary. And 35 seems scary too, because I'm unmarried and all of that adult stuff, and would like to not be by the time I'm 35. I'm glad you had such a wonderful birthday, I hope it made turning 35 a little easier!

ale norris said...

i'm 26 and can't really think of a "scary" age. my mom was always very open about her age and thought it was silly when women wouldn't share their age or worried about years, so i thankfully adopted that from her! it's all just a blast.

theparttimewife.com said...

Happy Birthday Jo!

I'm glad you got to sleep in and enjoy some together time. Not being able to sleep would have been terrible, unless your bed was not just for sleeping ;-P

Dorothy DeMaria said...

Don't let any age scare you. You're a beautiful woman with a lovely family. Everyday that you draw breath is a gift. Take good care of your skin and exercise (with two little boys that should be easy) and you will be fine

Katherine said...

Happy Birthday!! I LOVE your sitter's rug! Could you ask her/him where it is from? I'm on a hunt for the perfect one! :D

Christine said...

Between 2012 and now, I have had the most amazing years. I went to pastry school, quit my teaching job, went on an epic European vacation with my husband, and had our first child, our baby girl who turns one this weekend. I am fortunate to be spending my days with her at home. I turn 30 later this year and can't even imagine how wonderful the coming years will be. I think I might feel the same with you about 35, because I should be done having kids by then, and feel like everything is in its place and time.

Love the pictures of Toby doing yoga! I use to love seeing my students do yoga on the playground. I'm hoping our daughter can spend the night at my parents house next month when my husband and I celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary (and 13 years together).

Kory Kendrick said...

Happy Birthday, Joanna!

I LOVE the photos of Toby doing yoga - he could not be any cuter.

Caitlin said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'm 26 (will be 27 in a couple months) and have been reading your blog since I was 20. Time goes by way too fast! 27 isn't freaking me out, but I think 29 will xx

Siren Jane said...

I'm coming on my 35th birthday this May and I too have been uneasy about it. But reading this post has helped me to put it in perspective. thank you! One day 35 will seem young and I should enjoy this time as a mother to my 3 year old son:)

SachaC said...

Love the part about not feeling as grown up as you expected to by the time you turned thirty five!

I actually just launched a new interview series on my blog where awesome people reflect on life in their twenties, and this is something my first interviewee talks a lot about. Here's the link, if you want to check it out. :)

http://zucchinisoup.wordpress.com/2014/01/31/reflections-on-quarter-life-part-i/

josashimi said...

I will be 40 in April and have booked a trip to Prague to celebrate. I think that age is just a number...I've met some wise and mature 20 somethings and then some not-so-wise 60 somethings. People are on different journeys - some learn that eyeshadow trick in their teens, but others, not til they're...39! (Me!) I think you've achieved immeasureably just by touching hundreds of lives each day through your blog - it's not something just anyone can do. Have a great year ahead. :)

Katrina said...

My beautiful, vivacious cousin died last year at the age of 29 from brain cancer, and I heard one of the best quotes to remind us how precious any age is…
" Old(er) age is a privilege denied to many."

So to you, and every other lady reading this - your age is perfect for as long as you have it!

Nicki Marshek said...

Happy birthday! I'm 30, which was scary, but now 31 seems even more terrifying. I thought for sure I would have found some kind of success by now. Instead, I'm broke in nyc with no job prospects, and I am really regretting wasting my 20s pretending that everything would work itself out. Now I know I should have been mastering my photoshop skills and I should have started a blog 10 years ago. I'm hoping 35 will be much better!

Katie said...

I turn 30 this summer and am nervous. I am trying to tell myself not to be, but somehow I can't shake the feeling that I won't be young anymore. Also, I am the type of of person who lies awake worrying about my own mortality, so any major reminders of aging contribute to that...

-Katie H.

Morgan said...

Happy birthday!! I have a babe the same age as Anton and I must know - does he wake up still at night? Did you pack a gallon of milk with him and warn the sitter (although I'm sure she's already familiar with him :)). I would love a night with just the hubby but I can't imagine my mom getting up with my daughter for a bottle at 2am... ahhhh sleep training. I should really find a way to speed up the process!

Congrats again!!

Joy said...

Happy Birthday!

Amanda T. said...

Happy birthday!

I think I was the only one of my friends who was thrilled to death to turn 30. I had my oldest daughter at 19, and I was always the youngest mom at school. When my daughter was younger, I was VERY frequently mistaken for a nanny. As cool as that sounds, it's not.

I finally feel like my age is catching up to my life. And I'm a respectable "mom" age in my 30's. :-) Still get mistaken for my daughter's sister, but it doesn't bother me nearly so much.

suzy said...

Happy Birthday!! i freaked out at 35 alittle and i just turned 38 and i'm freaking just a tad more! i am grateful though that i have a wonderful family and amazing friends and that i get to plan a kick *rse 40th soon wohooo ;) ...I dont leave my 4yr old overnight at all really. When she feels comfortable i'll leave her. We usually just have someone stay at our house when we need to go out.

lamcal said...

Turning 63 in May. Can't think of a really scary year,but life seems to warm and burnish memories. I turned 50 and graduated from nursing school and share a birthday with Florence Nightingale so that was pretty magical. When I started that process of adding another profession at 45, I said to my "college advisor".."I will be 50 when I finish this!" To which she said "You'll be 50 anyway…what do you have to lose?" This was the best advice ever. Don't ever let the numbers stand in your way or diminish the dreams. Bless the path.

chelseatellsstories said...

How nice to receive such a card from your mum-in-law!

I'm 30. I felt so good about turning 30....though the year has had its ups and downs.

My 'scary age' is 42...which I once made the mistake of admitting in front of a friend who happened to be (you guessed it) 42.

Looks like you had a terrific birthday. Well-deserved!

Score said...

I turned 35 today, so Happy Birthday fellow aquarian. I know what you mean about being apprehensive about 35, but I have a one-year-old now, and I agree, these are "the good 'ole days.

Sarah H said...

Happy Birthday! My scary age was 27 because that's how old my mom was when she had me. Now that I became a mom this Nov, I'm more nervous about his birthday.

I'm curious about how you found your sitter. Right now childcare for when I go back to work is my biggest stress. I live in nyc, we moved to a new neighborhood a week before we gave birth so I feel very much without a support system. Our parents/families live out of state so that's not an option.

sarah said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I love that Alex does these little romantic things for you, it makes me smile.

I'm turning 30 this year (!!) and I was in the process of freaking out, but Japanese people don't associate 30 with `old lady` the way we do in the west. My husband and friends are calming me down by not understanding the cultural implications of the age. I've started thinking "maybe it's all a social construct!"

komal jain said...

I used to think that the twenty-somethings seemed so mature when I was younger. Now that

Finley said...

HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
I just turned 35 and have the same feelings! In fact, in my head, I skipped 35 altogether. I kept saying I was turning 34 or 36. I don't know why, it was completely unintentional. Your MIL's card is lovely though.

I can't stand how cute Toby is!! Oh that sweet face doing his namaste. Love.

You are a lucky "old" lady with that beautiful family of yours.
xx

eleanor said...

Happy birthday!
Haha, I'm going to be 39 this year and have two kids, and by all counts live a very tame, family-oriented existence. I still don't feel like an adult and when I hear the term "grown ups" I still automatically think of my parents.

Champagne Sunday said...

30 was a blast, 35 snuck up on me, yet I still felt 25, and now that 40 is looming next, I'm honestly excited to get my 30s over with and ready for a vibrant, youthful, and exciting 40s. Even though I still feel 29 and a day ;-)

Cheers!
www.champagnesundayliving.com

Laura said...

i turn 35 this summer, which isn't scary, but i'm single w/o any romantic prospects and no children. i think it's the disconnect between what you have and what you thought you would have, which can grow with every year, and with some things, you know that you're facing the very real possibility that they're no longer possible. so it isn't the particular age that's scary, it's the fact that with every passing year, it's more likely that i'll never find someone (tho of course that remains possible forever), and that it's less and less likely i'll ever be able to have children of my own. i know that this happens to nearly everyone b/c of course our lives don't line up with what we imagined, but it's all too easy to see those around you and compare yourself to what they have and what seems "normal" at a point, especially when it's what you want. and while i keep trying to remind myself of the advantages of not having children or a spouse, it is still hard to give up on these things and the life you thought you'd have at a certain age. so for this year, i'll say 35 is my scary age. =)

Schenck catherine said...

I guess 30 was my scary age. 40 was totally fine. Then I turned 45 last summer and hated it; it seems that everything is downhill from now on.
I have decided two things after that 45th Bday:: I'll stop celebrating my birthday with friends and extended family, and I'll start a new tradition of a lovely brunch at this exceptional place with only my husband and my kids. That's it!

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eta said...

Another stalker who is sure that's SK's Deb there on the couch. How awesome.

Heather Robinson said...

I am 44 and have to say that being 35 was...my favorite year so far. It was an exceptional birthday, true (on a photo shoot in Botswana and then went on safari) but it was just a feeling...of really being at the top of my game. I look back at the confidence that I had then, in myself and all that I was doing and wow.
But I think that has as much to do where life has taken me in the past few years than an actual age. So, perhaps it might change but I no longer feel a scary age looming. It depends on what you do with it. Look at Louise Bourgeouis who didn't become a famous artist until she was nearly 80! You never know...
PS. Tobyyoga = happiness.

Julia said...

I'm turning 39 this year and despite loving so many aspects of my life – I have a great job, fantastic friends, a beautiful apartment, the money to travel quite bit, I am healthy and just swam butterfly for the first time in my life – I can't help feeling sad and scared when I think of the looming 40. I've been single for many years now and Laura expresses exactly what I feel: It's not the age itself – it's the all of a sudden very real possibility of never being able to have a child. I'm doing my best to stay optimistic but I'm feeling that the next year will be all about figuring out how to be happy with what I have and not to despair about what I don't.
Laura, I hope you will be surprised by your special someone, soon! Joanna, happy belated Birthday from Germany!
Julia – a usually silent, but faithful reader

Julia said...

I'm turning 39 this year and despite loving so many aspects of my life – I have a great job, fantastic friends, a beautiful apartment, the money to travel quite bit, I am healthy and just swam butterfly for the first time in my life – I can't help feeling sad and scared when I think of the looming 40. I've been single for many years now and Laura expresses exactly what I feel: It's not the age itself – it's the all of a sudden very real possibility of never being able to have a child. I'm doing my best to stay optimistic but I'm feeling that the next year will be all about figuring out how to be happy with what I have and not to despair about what I don't.
Laura, I hope you will be surprised by your special someone, soon! Joanna, happy belated Birthday from Germany!
Julia – a usually silent, but faithful reader

Elizabeth said...

I don't think there is a scary age for me. I think 30 is the new 20, so that kind of extends the good times. And I honestly look forward to retirement one day (assuming we have money) because you can finally do whatever you truly want, whenever you want. So, there's only greatness to look forward to! :)

Rose said...

I have several scary ages! One was the birthday I've just had 33- and to be honest from here on is scary to me- but after this one, 37 and I think 42 ish really- I think that's really you're very very unlikely to have kids after then- though I know there are some people who say I'm very unlikely to meet someone and have kids now at 33. It's funny I don't actually know if I want them but I like the possibility- and I'd definitely like to meet someone else and I'm wondering if that will ever happen!

Rose said...

ps such awful manners, I'm so sorry, happy happy birthday!

Jody said...

Happy Birthday, Joanna! I'm turning 37 in March. 35 didn't bother me, but I can already tell 40 is going to throw me for a loop. When I have moments of insecurity, I've started thinking, "I'm TOO OLD to feel like this!!" It's crazy as I know live is a journey!

Stacey J. said...

35 was it for me as well. And it happened just a few weeks ago. I live pretty a simple life full of adventure. There is just to much to see and do and show my kiddo not to. It's the only way. But I feel older this year. Middle aged....but it just made me want to do more with my life. That's it. Squeeze in all I can.
Cheers to you
Stacey

Christina Schmidt said...

Hmmm turned 40 at the end of 2013 and it is fab! Definitely 38-39 were "scarier". I think it was the idea of turning that corner between semi-youth and full grown all out middle aged(ish) adult. It was a lot to wrap my brain around especially when I still saw myself in my mind's eye as... much younger than my current age!

Sophie said...

What a poignant thing to say... I completely agree that life can feel likes it's running away and you've not quite got everything done but she's right. You've got a lifetime :)

Sophie x

http://your-girl-is-lovely.blogspot.co.uk

creakofthebow said...

I'll echo Laura and Julia earlier. I'm 28 but I think for me the issue is not achieving things in term of family and relationships that I feel others have or other people think I should have. In the past 3 years the majority of my friends have got married and started having kids. I see this echoed in the media and blogs and didn't realise when I was younger that there was still such pressure on women to do this (even if it is part of what I want) and that if you hadn't by a certain stage how it would feel. My mother has also been unwell with psychiatric problems which has meant that celebrating birthdays has been a bit hollow. However, other parts of my life are generally in order and I have lovely friends so there is a lot I am grateful for too!

Maureen said...

Happy Birthday!!! I am 53 with 2 kids in college and one high schooler soon to graduate. I really embrace every stage of life especially with kids but hands down your age was wonderful for me. I had our third when I was 36 and loved the baby, toddler years. I would love to go back in a time machine and spend one day with the three back when they were little and just stare at them all day. I would look into their eyes and say to each of them, "you turn out to be the most amazing person in the world!" Love your blog and you. It's all going to be alright.

abroadathome said...

I turned 27 in November and feel really good about this age. I recently got married and moved to Switzerland so there are also a lot of other exciting happenings in my life, ones to be grateful very for. My husband is 31 and says that was a hard birthday since now he's really in his thirties : ) But, I think you have such a great perspective (thanks to your sweet mother-in-law) and I hope to take a similar approach to all my years. These are the best of times so pay attention and show gratitude--what a great idea!

On another note, your dress looks so beautiful! I think I just bought the same one from Anthropologie, yes? I bought in online so haven't seen it in person, but if it's the same one I'm in for a treat! Happy Birthday!! x

dervla kelly said...

happy birthday, Joanna (and your sister, too) ... what a lovely reaction your mother-in-law had to age 35. Everything is relative after all.

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Fisher Sisters said...

I loved reading through all of these comments! They made me smile. I'm turning 25 next, which I will admit, totally snuck up on me. But it doesn't really scare me... each age brings new adventures. :)

- Lynn-Holly

emmy d said...

I'm 29 and turning 30 in June, which I was excited about but am getting more nervous. I feel like I should have a better idea of who I am and where I'm going by now. I hate all those article of "30 people under 30 who have done amazing things" and I just think what am I doing wrong??? I still don't know where I am going? Not that my life is a wreck - I have a stable and well-paying job (that i'm not always am sure that I like), a great husband, good friends and family, am buying a house and am in grad school. So I guess that should be enough! The grass always seems greener in someone else's life though.

Cheryl said...

Looks like you had a wonderful birthday! hugs to you! :) My scary age is 40 I think . . . yet again that's when I'm going to buy my Audi hahaha. My old age car ;)

That City Girl said...

Happy Birthday, Joanna (I love that dress)! I can relate to your feelings as I just turned 36 (kinda my scary age since I'm officially heading towards my late 30's!). I also just read the post about your brother-in-law. How difficult and shocking for you all. I was diagnosed with brain cancer in 2012, and it really is the shock of the lifetime. Turning 36 last month, though, meant one more year of GOOD and stable health (hooray!), and more time with my 2 year old son and my sweet husband. I think that has slightly changed the aging process for me - it's a celebration of more time and life!

I am praying for Paul and Lucy and your whole family. Totally changing my diet has given me so much hope for the future. There is so much one can do with nutrition alone. The website chrisbeatcancer.com is an incredible resource, as are people like Kris Carr and Max Gerson. I hope he has the opportunity to look into them!
xo

Ember Grey. said...

Happy Birthday!!! My 30th is today.. my hubby threw me a surprise party this past weekend, too. So fun!! :)

Emily
www.embergrey.com

Posh Pearl said...

Happy Birthday! I just turned 34 in January. I definitely feel so adult, so much older, especially now that I'm a mom! Have a wonderful year! xxoo

Aya said...

Happy birthday! Thank you for this. I am turning 30 and feel remarkably okay with it, but fear 35. Your story was reassuring.

Also, I love the first photo of Tobes--he's concentrating so hard! Adorable.

Janan said...

I'm turning 37 in April. Every year for the past 6 years has been scary:)

eKim said...

Happy belated birthday, Joanna!

I turned 35 a few months ago and although I initially thought I'd take it hard, I've decided to learn to embrace it. I will say it was a bit of a shock when I first heard someone say "35" since I can actually recall my mother being this age.

Glad to hear you had a lovely birthday weekend celebrating with friends. Cheers!

Ms. Makin' said...

Happy Birthday Jo! I had a birthday on the 18th of Jan- I've never been a good birthday-er. As a child i didnt enjoy them, i dislike cake, and disliked having that much attention drawn to me. after turning twenty i began hating them because i felt like it was another year i hadnt accomplished my goals of going to law school and saving the world and becoming a millionaire. This year, the week before my 27th birthday, my husband brought up the fact that he wanted us to start thinking about getting pregnant, we are buying a house, both have great jobs, and are doing better than all of our freinds our age. So, for m birthday this year, i gave myself the gift of admiring myself and refusing to judge myself or what should have been or what i should have done. It wouldn't be fair to my husband to wallow in the past, when everything in our lives is so perfect and we are so fortunate. A friend of mine is a professional cheerleader- so my husband arranged to have her, the whole squad, and the rest of our close loving friends go out and have a blast. I had one of the best nights of my life, let go of the insecurities and had birthday cheerleaders... and I now feel like i can take on 28,29,and ....30... with gusto and joy, and just try to relish in my personal and professional accomplishments. and stop worrying about what other people think of them.

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Sue Harris said...

Lovely birthday, lovely party. I am 58 and have to admit that 45 was a hard one for me. And with 60 looming in the near future, it is REALLy bothering me. I don't feel that different than when I was in my 20's--mentally anyway! I don't know that you ever feel totally accomplished or established at any age. It all just keeps changing, and we have to keep changing too. My own sweet baby is now a beautiful, smart, wonderful 24 year old getting her PhD.

lindsay said...

My scary age was 30. Leaving my 20s was hard. I am naturally a little immature and I think I liked that my less mature qualities were backed by "being in my 20s" like it made it OK. So I had a good cry at midnight when I realized in that moment, I was now in my 30s. Ever since, I haven't really cared, I just turned 33.

misses free said...

what a nice bithday party!!!
sleepovers are such a great adventure for kids :)

Janet said...

Happy Birthday - what a wonderful age indeed ;)

susan pagor-walsh said...

Just the other day I was thinking about my age 46 thinking that it seemed so old then the sad news of actor philip seymore Hoffman dying i looked at a picture of him and thought wow he was so young realizing that I was the same age as me.

Daisy said...

Just turned 34 on Feb 1. That was an unexpected scary age.

Deirdre said...

Sounds like you had a fun birthday. I have a baby almost the exact same age as Anton (I think they might have even been born the same week) and you are giving me hope with this talk of leaving your kids with a babysitter overnight! What I wouldn't give to drink a little bit too much wine and sleep in like the old days. Maybe I can rope my parents into this, hmmm...

Nicole Lam said...

We "farm" our boys out every now and then, the last time being this past Saturday night. It's important now and then to let them go off on their own "adventure" without the parent (in my opinion). Of course, I don't just let them stay with anyone - only my parents or mother-in-law. But it is nice to be able to have a continuous, uninterrupted night's sleep and wake up when you're ready to wake up. And they love it, too! It truly is like an adventure to them, especially if it's with someone they are really comfortable with. Naturally, though, the second we leave or they're out the door, I miss them terribly and after our parents-night-out (PNO) is done, we can't wait to get them back to make our family whole again. Ah, such is a parent's life.
As far as the age thing, I firmly believe in living in the moment and, while sometimes, I get a little twitchy with how old I'm getting (34 in about 2 weeks), I realize that I'm not really that old and I should just enjoy it now because in 10 years, when I'm almost 44 (!), I'll be kicking myself for ever thinking I was old at 34. So, don't sweat it - it's just a number. You're only as old as you feel and sometimes, I fell like I'm 24. So not bad, eh? :) Happy Belated Birthday!!

Hillary said...

I just turned 32 on Wednesday, and was struck by sadness that I complete wasn't expecting! My boyfriend posted a photo of me from a few years ago on instagram wishing me a happy birthday and for some reason seeing that old photo made me miss a time where not having it figured out seemed more acceptable. Now at 32, I had hoped I would be closer, and in many ways I am, but I still can't make sense of what I want the next however many years to look like.
I think the other thing about your 30's is people don't tell each other what it looks like. We all have ideas about our 20's but all I was ever really taught about your 30's is that's when you're an adult and you are probably a parent so that's what your life is about. But if you're not a parent, and/or don't feel much like an 'adult', what are our 30's supposed to look like?

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